Sometimes

Occasionally, we are presented with extraordinary opportunities.
And when these extraordinary opportunities arise,
we are excited-- stunned-- thrilled.
More than anything else we are
grateful.

And sometimes we think that these opportunities reflect one's worth.
That these opportunities define and characterize who we are.
In reality, these opportunities do shape us as humans
but are by no means a definition.

After all, we cannot take credit for what we receive
for it is only by the will and grace of God that we receive
anything.

It is only by the will and grace of God that I receive
a fantastic internship opportunity and somebody else receives a cancer diagnosis.
It is only by the will and grace of God that I receive
the opportunity to attend college while others receive an unwanted pregnancy.
It is only by the will and grace of God that I receive
three incredibly good and close friends in Kansas and others receive not one.
It is only by the will and grace of God that I receive
the gift of faith and hope while others live in misery and despair.
It is only by the will and grace of God that I receive
healing in the part of my life that was wounded while others continue to search.
It is only by the will and grace of God that I receive
an incredibly supportive family while others remain in a family of dysfunction.

My life is by no means perfect-- I definitely have my issues. I'd like to be thinner, have better grades, not have to worry about money, be more humble, live with more humility, and never have any urges to self-harm-- but my life is pretty darn good and I'm pretty darn fortunate to be where I'm at today.

Realizations,
Girl Rapidly Rising But Hoping Not to Fall