The Release

I feel so blessed to see God working through so many of my new friends here at KU.

There are those times when you get pent up inside... and you need to let some of that pent up OUT. And some kids drink... and some party... and some think that sex is the way to let it all out. Some take crazy risks-- some get high-- ditch school-- jump. And I wish that they could see what I see--- and what I see in all of my friends.

God works through them in amazing ways. My friend Sarah plays piano and sings hymns from her piano book. She is so moved by it-- her world is quite literally shaken to the core by it. And it moves everyone around her-- from Ashley... who is not even religious to Shannon who does not play any form of music. It moves me. Because I feel it. And I know the emotion behind it.

Then to hear Ashley break out in harmony... is incredibly inspiring and awe-some. To see her work so swiftly through the most incredibly composed piano arrangements is indescribable.

It's almost as if I had been gripped by the hand of God and all of the exteriors were broken down and shaken off. All that was left was the raw, true, and real me. And us.

It's pretty super-natural... music. It is color and sense for the soul... it is an integral part of religion and is meaningless without faith.

It's such a gift to be able to see God. And to hear God. And to experience God.
It was so visceral. And so physical. You can FEEL it.

All for Now,
Baby J

Shout

She longs for intelligent conversations,
with meaningful outcomes.
She wants direction, action, and results.
She yearns for a running buddy.
Some one to keep up the pace
and slow down when she wants a break.
Some one to give her the feeling that
she is protected, loved, and noticed.
The feeling that she is worthy and beautiful.

It's hard to say whether she is looking for
a good guy or just a good God.
One step closer to God may yield one
step away from the guys.
And one step closer to the guys,
might yield one step farther from God.

She's tired of waiting for a good guy,
and God is getting tired of waiting for
this good girl to notice and appreciate him too.

Time to take care of the existing relationships.
Not the time to start new ones.
God's watch will yield a fruitful harvest.
Eventually.
She prays.

All that for now, he is calling me by name,
Olivia