Rebel

Sometimes I just want to be a rebel.
Sometimes I just want to run.
Sometimes I just want to hide.

Sometimes I just don't feel like it.

Sometimes I just don't want that challenge.
Sometimes I just don't want to take on that responsibility.
Sometimes I just don't want to show up.

Sometimes I just don't feel like doing good.

Sometimes I just want to give in-- give up.
Sometimes I just want to do what feels good.
Sometimes I just want to do what is the easiest.

Sometimes I just don't feel like doing good or being obedient.

Sometimes I just don't want to listen.
Sometimes I just don't want to try.
Sometimes I just don't want to take a leap of faith.

Sometimes I just don't feel like doing good, being obedient, or becoming selfless.

Sometimes I just want to ask why?
Sometimes I just want to let my mind wander.

And sometimes, just sometimes,
I just want to stop pretending that I'm
doing good, being obedient, and becoming selfless.

And I guess that is when faith becomes real.
And that might be the sometimes, when I realize
that I'm NOT. But I should try to BE.