There are hectic times in life-- good and bad and all of us deal with these times differently. Quite literally, I have-- as a Jayhawk might-- landed in one of the most gorgeous places on the planet earth. I feel so lucky to be here with so many friendly and supportive people! Friends are easy to meet and come by-- cute boys are found almost anywhere you look, and the sunrises and sunsets are unparalleled. Social Events are played on a continuous loop and clubs and programming is never sparse.
Hectic with classes and homework and meetings and new things to discover. I can't quite put into words the feeling I am experiencing. It hurts in a way because I feel like I have left everything authentic and true behind--- my structured life, my lifelong friends, and my family. But, I'm jumping into a sea of a new life. I want to keep myself throughout all of it... and I think I might just be able to hold onto myself as I run through Tornado Alley. I love the tornado-- I love the crazy... because it is a good kind of crazy. I have to make time for homework that I truly want to do and I have to make time for people I truly want to meet up to and talk with. I have to make time to live my dream and study my dream.
It is like there is this optimist inside of me that has just been waiting for this. And it's like I'm rediscovering myself in a way that makes me really think about what I'm here for and what I want to do with my life.
I feel like I'm growing. And sometimes growing pains hurt. And sometimes it is just really really confusing. But it's all I can do but to grin and bear it. ☺
I think that there are really only a few true loves in my life...I know that one of them is definitely NASA...and KU... KU has really swept me off of my feet.
I thank God that I was blessed with this opportunity-- yet I feel like I can even get closer to God, my Guardian, my Warrior, my Protector, my Consoler, my Comforter, and my knight in shining armor.
As the song plays, "Change is a direct result of all things..."
Love Forever and Ever,
Writer on the Rise
They say that college is a life-changing experience. And you sound GREAT!
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